Support?
Through out my whole life, I’ve never got supported for anything I have done or wanted to do. I hate the feeling of not having anyone to rely on for support. I hate doing things on my own. I hate not having anyone to just come out and watch me. I hate my family not giving me a chance. I hate being alone. I hate when after a show(s) I’ve performed in that their aren’t people coming for me and just me. It sucks having that feeling that you’re so alone when you’re doing something you love/like to do. What really sucks is when you see other people getting compliments and what not from their family members and ever friends and you’re over there alone. I felt that so many times before and WOOOO let me tell you, it isn’t the best feeling in the world. I think I’ve gotten use to that feeling though. I just shrug it off now but today event’s just brought it all back to me and the feeling of being disappointed and flaked on. People always say “oOoOo Ill go and cheer you on” and at the last minute, you seem to flake and say you can’t go anymore. Oh you know like I said, always happens.
I recently asked my sister a few days ago if she wanted to go watch me peform tomo..today at SPF but she said “No” She doesn’t want to go and rather do something else. Well thanks for the support! No one in my family has ever even went to watch me perform even at school when there was a performance. I asked my mom last night too if she wanted to go watch me, but she said she has work. Atleast she didn’t say that she could do other things than watch me dance. I don’t even think she even comprehends what I say when I’m dancing. I think she thinks im at the club or something dancing rather then choreographed dancing. Sighhhh ima end it here…
